I don’t understand them. Geez… Leo is super nice, and everything Sammy said about him seems really odd to me. Like Leo would never do something like that. He couldn’t even seem to touch me Saturday night, where he had me alone, for 3 hours, and I was honestly willing! Like do I have to make the first move? Or is he just really not into me? But he always texts me, and if I don’t respond, he’ll text again in an hour, but he always falls asleep at night. Like right now, hes asleep, probably, he hasn’t texted back in almost an hour. Why does he do this? And I can’t seem to stop thinking about him? Idk, I’m not like totally into him, but I just really want something to happen between us, and I kinda like hanging out with him.
We’ve only been talking for about a week or so, but I feel like its been months. Our sushi date was a little awkward, but it was our first time being alone, and I was extremely nervous, Saturday night, I was really hoping for something to happen, but I guess he’s too shy. I really thought he was going to kiss me when I went to my car, but I guess not? or maybe I made it awkward for moving my face to the left when he did too, oh god, what if I’m just making everything awkward, and he only wanted to be friends from the start? like what if he had no intentions of doing anything more than friends, and I’m over here, wanting him.
But does he text every girl the way he does with me? That’s just not right if he does. I would imagine he’d be glued to his phone if he did. and he just doesn’t seem like the type. but ugh. I WANT FRIDAY NIGHT TO BE HERE ALREADY!!
We’re going to watch a movie, I have no idea which one, and I really want to see how things go with him. I know I shouldn’t expect much, but like I hope something happens. If he doesn’t try anything on Friday, then I give up. He will forever be a friend. I don’t care what he tries. I will always see it as a friendly gesture, nothing more, nothing less. So he better make a move, I hope he does. God I’m just full of shit
And the fact that I can’t eat like I want to, it completely sucks.